I am extremely stressed out these days. Really, really, REALLY stressed out. Stressed and “down”. Sigh…
My husband’s job has been outsourced. Not only did they cut his pay drastically but they are going to pay him in “chunks” every quarter. His base pay is now $28,000 LESS then he makes now. The “chunks” of pay are suppose to make is salary a bit more, but it’s still less then he makes now. Not only that we have to figure out what we are going to do every three month that we will be short on money. So technically we won’t have the money to pay our mortgage except for every three months. That’s not going to work too well. It’s bad enough getting paid every other week but now to get paid significantly less each with each paycheck and having to wait three months to see extra money is just insane. We asked if they could give him just a regular salary and not this “chunk” of money bologna, but they won’t budge.
To add to this we will be without insurance for the month of October. True, we can buy into COBRA for the month but COBRA is very expensive. I told my husband if COBRA is too much we just have to go on a wing and a prayer and hope that no one gets sick during the month. Of course this comes at the same time they are going to do the Flu and H1N1 vaccinations too (supposedly). The timing couldn’t be any worst.
I have to look for a job. I have to work nights and weekends because we need someone to get the kids on and off the bus and be with them on holidays, school vacations and snow days. This is NOT going to be easy. I haven’t had a “real” job in 12+ years. I’m overweight, I never finished my Bachelors degree and I’m 41 years old. Exactly what job am I qualified for except minimum wage jobs. All those years I busted my butt to get great grades in college so I could have a career and now I’ll be working a minimum wage job, if I’m lucky. I not looking forward to being away from my husband and kids on nights and weekends too. My husband is at work all day and the kids are at school all day. When will I see them?
Our school and property taxes are going up AGAIN. It’s bad enough we can’t afford them now. Ugh!
My kids go back to school next week. I am SO WORRIED about our son. He’s starting middle school and I’m afraid he’s going to get gobbled up and spit out. He’s not an excellent student like our daughter is. Academically and socially he’s her polar opposite. She excels, he struggles. She has tons of friends, he doesn’t have any. I think I’m more stressed out about him going to middle school then he is.
We just found out this evening that our neighbors are selling their condo and moving out. That is really sad because we’re friends with them. We have watched their daughter grow up ever since she was born. I baby sit her from time to time. They “say” they will keep in touch and invite us over to their new house when they buy one (for a year they are going to live with the in-laws to save money). But we know the truth…we’ll never hear from them again. And that is so very sad. It’s sad and frustrating too because they are moving out and someday into a house. We’ll be forever confined to our condo. I compare our condo to a “Roach Motel” – “Once you check in you’ll never check out” (remember those commercials?).
My business is tanking too. I have had my business for a long time now and it used to do very well. Now I’m luck if I see an order a month. And the orders are usually very small with little profit if any. I was going to cancel hosting on my web site since I can’t afford it but the billing went through before I could cancel it.
Ending my business breaks my heart. It meant so much to me. But there is no point in paying for the web site when I don’t even profit enough to pay for it.
There are a few other things but I won’t bore anyone with them.
I am feeling overwhelmed right now, stressed and sad. I don’t mean to be so “woe is me” about this. Normally I’m a pretty happy-go-lucky person. But we’re all human and we all are vulnerable to feeling overwhelmed and stressed out.
I seriously need some suggestions on how to get out of this funk and to get rid of this stress. Stress is not good for your overall health and well being. I need to get rid of it before it weighs me down and smothers me.
When YOU are feeling overwhelmed and stressed out, what do you do? What methods help you to unwind and feel better? Is there an herbal tea that helps? An exercise? A song? I’m open to suggestions.
Thanks for listen to me ramble about this. Sorry for the long post.
