You know that expressions “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” and “God won’t give you more than you can handle“? How true do you think they are? Right now I’m not handling things too well and I certainly don’t feel stronger.
I have to jump on a soap box for a bit to get some stuff off my chest. The world can be a cruel place, and I know that there are millions of people out there who are far worse off then I am. I am trying to keep that in perspective.
Where do I begin… ?
We spent a lot of time, money and energy fixing our condo up so that we can try and sell it. We want so desperately to move. Four people in a one bedroom condo is not an ideal arrangement. My husband and I haven’t slept in a real bed in 11+ years. We sleep on a sofa bed (we constantly have sore backs from the bar in the middle). All we want is a nice little house that is move in ready and has room for my family to spread out.
We’ve been on the market since the beginning of August and have had four showings. We even found our dream house but we couldn’t do anything about it without selling this place.
The whole selling our condo thing has had me “down” for a few months. All of a sudden things have started to snow ball and it’s been one bad thing after the next. Suddenly selling our condo is the least of our problems.
My car had a lot of problems. It’s 17 years old. We can’t afford a “new” (used) car, and we couldn’t afford to get it fixed. We had to borrow $$$ from my father just to slap a very expensive “band aid” on my car. No telling how long it’s going to last. And yes, we always pay back $$$ we borrow from him, even if it takes years.
We have five cats and a dog. Our dog needs to go to the vet and our two oldest cats need to go to the vet too. I ended up taking our youngest cat to the vet because she would have these weird “attacks” where it seemed like she was gagging on something. It was not a hairball. We know hairballs. That wasn’t it.
After almost $1,000 in vet bills the vet said she has Asthma and Hyperthyroidism. She’s on medications, one she’ll have to take for the rest of life.
This past Sunday we had to rush her to the animal hospital because she was having an attack that wouldn’t stop. The emergency vet is concerned that it’s NOT Asthma, that it could be something else. Especially because she’s on steroids for the Asthma and has these weird attacks daily. She wants us to look into more tests and X-rays. I love our cat very much but we spent every dime we have and it will take some time to save up hundreds of dollars again.
On a side note, which is equally as stressing to me, two of our neighbor’s dogs died. One had cancer. I’m not sure about the other one. I just found out that another neighbor’s dog has cancer. With our dog being sick that makes me worry. Why are dogs getting cancer? Does living under huge power lines have anything to do with it? Or the fact we live in a 10 mile radius of a nuclear plant?
Can’t sell our condo… cr*ppy car… sick pets… no money… what else could go wrong?
Our daughter has something wrong with her. She kept complaining that her heart felt like it would stop (the doctor said it was actually slowing down, it was obviously not stopping). She also has a few other “quirks”. The doctor sent her for blood tests and told us to take her to the Cardiologist.
We went to the Cardiologist who gave her an EKG and echo-cardiogram. Both turned out fine. She did say if it continues she’ll put her on a heart monitor.
Whew… that was a relief… or was it?
Our daughter had blood work done too. The doctor received her results. She tested positive for ANA (something to do with antibodies). She also has elevated/high levels of Smith antibodies and something that sounded like RNT or R&T (?). She wants us to get her to a Rheumatologist ASAP. She also mentioned Lupus and then sounded a bit concerned when I mentioned my grandmother died from Wegener’s Granulomatosis (although we still insist it was complications for a Brown Recluse Spider bite).
I had mentioned to the doctor that our daughter complained of her heart slowing down again, and that she was having trouble breathing. She didn’t tell us until AFTER she felt better! In fact our son was the one that told us. The doctor said she wants to put her on a heart monitor just to see what is going on.
Our daughter was perfectly healthy? I don’t know what is going on. It makes me concerned about my son and husband’s health too. Maybe they should be checked out?
I’m also Diabetic and I have Hypothyroidism. I’m on pills and shots. I have to admit that I haven’t been taking very good care of myself lately. With the stress of everything else I sort of pushed my own health on the “back burner” so to speak.
This is going to be a rough Christmas. My daughter has health issues, the cat has health issues, I’m worried about all of our health, and we don’t have much $$$ for gifts. Right now the best gift of all would be a clean bill of health for our daughter. It would be very nice if all my pets were well too.
I’m unbelievable stressed out and beyond tired and fatigued. I can barely concentrate anymore. I wake up with headaches almost daily (I think it has to do with a cold and sinuses). I just want to crawl into a hole.
With everything going on I’m behind on blog posts and pulling winners for giveaways. I hope that you will all bare with me and understand that I am doing the best that I possibly can. My family has to come first. I will get all the posts done and I’ll try and get those with a deadline done in time. I’ll also get all the winner’s pulled too.
I really need a hug. A really big hug. Maybe some positive vibes and prayers would help too.
Sigh… I’m about to cry! I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes.
Thanks for letting me vent. I’m not sure who is going to be crazy enough to read this long post. If someone has, thank you. I do appreciate that with all my heart.